I had a strange feeling in my gut the night before our first wedding anniversary. M thought I was being paranoid as I was only three days overdue but it was there, niggling at the back of my head… the big what if. Having discovered that the extended in-laws all planned to drop over at midnight to “surprise” us, M and I went to get enough cake and stuff to feed them all… and then we went to a drugstore where my very embarrassed self bought not one but two DIY pregnancy tests (different brands just to be sure). Then as soon as we got home, we nipped upstairs to our room and I took the tests. Sure enough both strips sported thin red lines confirming that I was indeed “knocked up”.
Though M and I had been planning this for a while, both of us were pretty shell-shocked. A little part of me was thinking I was crazy to imagine I could do this… but we were both very excited. We called my mum and M could hardly speak to her he was that emotional! Then later, after the guests left we broke the news to M’s parents.
I was lucky enough not to have had ANY morning sickness throughout my pregnancy. Neither did I have any food cravings, which I was actually looking forward to but oh well… and I didn’t gain too much weight… great considering I was overweight to begin with. I didn’t even look pregnant till I was well into my 6th month… and I have only started to look obviously pregnant after week 30! Most of my clothes still fit me till 7 months. M’s been ultra careful with me throughout… making sure I rest well and eat well and I don’t exert myself at all. He’s a sweetheart and I don’t know of any other husband who’s been this caring about his wife during pregnancy.
Our favourite things to do have been baby-shopping and ultrasounds!!! Seeing the baby makes it all the more real especially for me who until recently, at times forgot that I was pregnant at all! We found out it was going to be a girl at the 20 week ultrasound… even though my cousins, aunts and grannies had “predicted” a girl way before that in a variety of ways… dreams/Chinese horoscope/the way my belly looked/plain old gut feelings etc!I love feeling the baby kick and move. In the beginning when I felt her kick you couldn’t feel it on the outside, but M said that by putting his ear to the bump he could hear sloshing sounds every time she moved. Then later the movements could be felt by placing a hand on my tummy… and now, they can even be SEEN, as often she makes my tummy move with an extra strong kick or shove. M talks to her all the time, has been for ages, though I still feel quite silly talking to my tummy. She often reacts now to his voice kicking more vigorously when he speaks to her…
I’ve slowed down a lot in these past few weeks. This is actually the only time I’ve felt the least bit hindered by my pregnancy. I spent a night at the hospital 2 days ago. My blood pressure shot up and they kept me for observation just in case. I’m fine now, but driving to the hospital at midnight was scary… and coming back empty handed was kinda disappointing… but there’s not long to go now.
Week 37 starts today. My bags are all packed and ready to go. Baby shopping is all done. I’m having baby dreams every night… and I’m scared shitless of the whole life change that will follow…and the part I’m looking forward to most though is seeing M hold our baby for the first time…
... This has been an attempt to make up for my laziness to post these past few months. Plus I couldnt sleep... and now that I feel a yawn coming, I'm headed to bed!
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