As Blue as Blue can be

Day 3 on the diet and so far I have been behaving... Having said that however, I am feeling seriously low today and we all know where that leads!!! BUT lucky for me I brought lunch from home today so I am less likely to cheat… even though the office boy put some sugar in my coffee which felt great! J

M says I have not yet “accepted” Karachi which is why I hate it and the lifestyle here. No one has time for anything! Plus with M’s whole “I can’t neglect my parents” thing, I am the one who ends up feeling neglected. Throughout the week we usually get home by 7… and then we HAVE to sit downstairs with the parents because they shouldn’t feel neglected. We go upstairs only when it's time to sleep which is usually past 11 or 12… The only time I get to spend alone with my husband is in the morning when we’re both rushing to get ready to work or late at night when we’re usually both exhausted and asleep under ten minutes! On Saturday MIL usually has plans for a “family” outing… from which we return late… on Sundays Mo basically just catches up on sleep… while I catch up on Laundry and other chores.

I don’t want to “steal” their son from my ILs… but don’t I have a right to my husband… aren’t WE supposed to be an independent family unit too?

My mommy told me that the cardinal rule of keeping in-laws happy is to never talk back no matter how provoked and to be generous to them materially. I do both and instead of exploding into a furious tirade on the numerous occasion where I know I am right, I just shut up and listen… I kill a small part of me every time and resist the urge to fight for myself. Every time MIL makes an issue over inconsequential things I implode. I vent my fury here so I am not tempted to talk back. However I am going to try to focus on the happier bits as well cuz my blog has begun to sound like I am forever complaining…